Excepted from:  Dreams and Visions From God by Dimitriu Duduman wwwl.handofhelp.com December 5, 1989 I had just returned home from Wisconsin. Every time I prayed, a very big star would appear in front of me. This happened about sixteen times in a period of a few days. Every time the star would appear, it would make a great noise and I would always tremble. For a few seconds it would just stand up high and then, at great speed it would fall to the ground! I prayed together with my family for an answer. After the 16th time, the answer came. I heard a voice say, "Do you see this star? It represents America. This is how fast the fall of America will be! As fast as that star fell!" Then the voice said, "I love the Christians in this country because of all the good deeds they have done, and for the help they have given those in need. I blessed this country so other people would be fed from it." The voice also said, "There will be a time of preparation for the people. The ones who need to repent should do it now, before it is too late. The time without trouble will last until the total number of the chosen is fulfilled." (Obadiah 1:4) My prayer is that God will have mercy on this nation. Excepted from:  Dreams and Visions From God Copyright © 1994, 1996, 2000

Jesus, please remove the arrow piercing my heart Before the poison moves through my veins, tearing me apart. Tears well up in my eyes with the thought of what was said. Words are painful; they cut like a knife, making me wish I were dead Words can create problems, conflict, and strife. Wreaking havoc and chaos in my life I know I am yours, Lord, and belong to you, But my enemy is wicked and knows just what to say and do. ~~~~~~~ What you have experienced is unjust and unkind. It is the world you encounter because you are mine. It's okay to feel hurt, rejected, and in pain. Bring all this to the throne in My precious name. Don't fear the people I have placed in your life. I have got you; I will handle the turmoil and strife. Draw near to me; receive my peace. I am guarding your heart; relax and release. Release to me the hurt, the anger, the shame Trust me, I'm here. Call out my name. I am teaching you to walk my way, my style You are not alone as you walk the Green Mile. Know the truth, my child, and the arrow will jar free Your wound will heal when you bring your suffering to me.~ Yeshua ~~~~~~~ rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, constant in prayer, Romans 12:12 JUB And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 JUB And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free. John 8:32 JUB "The Green Mile". Symbolizes the final journey towards death and is also a metaphor for the inevitability of death in general. ~ Google

Note: Interestingly, I have never had a dream that I can remember, which continued after I awoke and went to sleep again. There were three interruptions during this dream. The first part was interrupted when I awoke and went to the bathroom. I returned to bed, and the dream continued where it left off. The second part of the dream was interrupted when I became hot and arose from bed to adjust the temperature on the heater in my room.  The third part, or the end of the dream, was completed right before I awakened to begin the day.   In the dream, I was in a friendship with a young woman. I am not sure how I knew the young woman in the dream or how we became friendly; this was not clear. I found the young woman kind, thoughtful, energetic, charismatic, and lovely to be around. We became fast friends despite our age difference, some thirty years or so.   We enjoyed each other’s company, and we had a lot in common. We shared a common love for the Lord, or at least I thought we did.   During the first part of the dream, our friendship grew increasingly more personal and intimate. In the second sequence, we were holding one another and dancing when she tried to kiss me passionately, and I moved my head abruptly to the side. I asked her what she was doing. She began to downplay the action, telling me it was okay; there was nothing wrong with us sharing a kiss. She used flattering words to persuade me to think about it more deeply and expressed her feelings towards me seductively and convincingly. I then woke up for the second time, not realizing that I had been dreaming.   I soon went back to sleep, and the third sequence of the dream continued with me struggling with unfamiliar thoughts of fornicating with this young woman. I struggled inwardly and was very disturbed about having these feelings since I had never experienced these thoughts or ideas before in my life. As I was reasoning with myself, I called on the Lord and asked Him what was going on and why I was thinking like this. Then suddenly, I was given over to the thought of being with this woman. Awakening abruptly, I realized it had been a dream, but the feelings and desire to engage with this woman lingered. I began to ask the Lord for clarification. What did this mean? What was this struggle? It also became apparent that the dream was in three parts, or stages. I sat up in my bed and, as is my habit, I began to read the word of God, and where I happened to be reading was Proverbs chapter 7.   As I read Proverbs 7, the dream and this chapter began to mesh and interlock with a clearer spiritual understanding.   Proverbs Chapter 7   'My son (children), keep my words, And treasure my commands within you. Keep my commands and live, And my law as the apple of your eye. Bind them on your fingers; Write them on the tablet of your heart. Say to wisdom, “You are my sister,” And call understanding your nearest kin, that they may keep you from the immoral woman  (the apostate church), From the seductress who flatters with her words.  For at the window of my house I looked through my lattice, And saw among the simple, I perceived among the youths, A young man (one of my children) devoid of understanding, Passing along the street near her corner; And he took the path to her house In the twilight, in the evening, In the black and dark night. And there a woman (the apostate bride) met him, with the attire of a harlot, and a crafty (deceitful) heart. She was loud and rebellious; her feet would not stay at home.  At times she was outside, at times in the open square, lurking at every corner. So she caught him and kissed him; With an impudent (brazen, sassy, disrespectful) face, she said to him: “I have peace offerings (outward religious performance, hiding inward immorality) with me; Today I have paid my vows. (using holy or religious language and flatteries) So I came out to meet you, diligently to seek your face, and I have found you. I have spread my bed with tapestry, Colored coverings of Egyptian (worldly) linen. I have perfumed my bed with myrrh, aloes, and cinnamon. (showing how luxurious, pleasant smelling, rich, and seductive the world and religion can be) Come, let us take our fill of love until morning; Let us delight ourselves with love. For my husband (Jesus) is not at home; He has gone on a long journey; He has taken a bag of money with him and will come home on the appointed day.” (we won’t be caught, or found out, hiding, secret, lies, deception) With her enticing speech, she caused him to yield; with her flattering lips, she seduced him. Immediately, he went after her,  as an ox goes to the slaughter, Or as a fool to the correction of the stocks, till an arrow struck his liver. (life and blood reside in the liver) As a bird hastens to the snare, He did not know it would cost his life . Now therefore, listen to me, my children; Pay attention to the words of my mouth: Do not let your heart turn aside to her (apostasies) ways, do not stray into her paths; For she has cast down many wounded, and all who were slain by her were strong men. her house is the way to hell, descending to the chambers of death.' Proverbs 7:1-27 NKJV (emphasis mine)   As I prayed about this further and shared the vision with my husband, the Holy Spirit began to clarify the dream and its spiritual implications regarding the church (true bride), and the apostate church, deception, the great falling away, and the end times.   The dream sequence reveals the subtlety of the deception. A gradual friendship, grooming, and persuasion, with flatteries and enticements. This has taken place for centuries, all through this age.   The young woman  is the seductress, the apostate church (bride) , who has prostituted herself with the world , compromising herself and accepting many forms of ungodliness. Many times, in the Bible, the word woman is referred to as the church, or the bride of Christ. In this dream, the woman is the apostate church, the Laodicean church, the church of this age, which entices God's children to follow her ways. It is laced and grounded in religious piety, man’s traditions, and dogmas.   Apostasia (Google search) ·       Apostate is an individual who formally abandons, renounces, or turns away from their former religion, faith, or cause . Rooted in Greek for " runaway slave " or " defection " ( apostasia ) . ·       Someone who deliberately and permanently turns away from or renounces their professed faith in God and the Christian church, a “falling away” or “rebellion” from what they once claimed to believe, often marked by persistent unbelief, unrepentance, and opposition to God, distinct from temporary backsliding by a genuine believer. The New Testament warns against this phenomenon, citing causes like false teachings, worldliness, persecution, and spiritual negligence, using such examples to encourage believers to persevere in faith.     Revelation 3:14-18 NKJV And to the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write, ‘These things says the Amen, the Faithful and True Witness, the Beginning of the creation of God: “I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were cold or hot. So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth. Because you say, ‘I am rich, (in the things of God) have become wealthy, and have need of nothing’—and do not know that you are wretched, miserable, poor, blind, and naked— I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments, that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed; and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see.   In this dream, I represent God's children, or (The Bride of Christ) , who are being enticed, deceived, and misled by what we think is of God. Being enticed by using holy or religious language and flatteries , doctrines of men. We cannot get in bed with the world (Babylon) and think we are serving God or his will. We then begin to merge or get in bed with the apostate church, resulting in a spiritual lesbian relationship. Together, this type of church cannot produce life; the relationship is sterile. There is no husband, no seed no reproduction of life, only death. To produce life, the church must find seed from another source, and Satan will accommodate.   Babylon ·      Babylon symbolizes confusion.  When man or the church implements their own plans and ways, not God's, they submit to a state of confusion. ·      Another name for Babylon is “the land of Caldea”, or the Caldeans. This has to do with spiritualism, or spiritualist. Again, when man or the church charts their own way, they fall into the hands of other spirits, not the Holy Spirit.   The “True Bride of Christ” is set apart for her bridegroom, Jesus Christ. The “apostate bride,” or “harlot bride,” has married Babylon (her husband)  and desires to entice the “true bride” to get in bed with her, causing the “True Bride”  to be defiled.    We are deceived because we do not know our God, who is our armor against such deception.  ~~~~~~~ 'Let no one deceive you by any means; for that Day will not come unless the falling away comes first, and the man of sin is revealed, the son of perdition, ' II Thessalonians 2:3 NKJV   'Now the Spirit expressly says that in latter times some will depart from the faith, giving heed to deceiving spirits and doctrines of demons, ' I Timothy 4:1 NKJV   'For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. ' Ephesians 6:12 NKJV   “Put on the whole armour of God that ye may be able to stand firm against the wiles of the devil. Stand firm, therefore, having your loins girt about with truth and having on the breastplate, {the coat of mail and coat of arms} of righteousness, and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace, above all, taking the shield of faith, with which ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit and watching in this with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints” Ephesians 6:11, 14-18 JUB And be not conformed to this age, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your soul that ye may experience what is that good and well pleasing and perfect will of God.    Romans 12:2 JUB ~~~~~~~   January 27, 2026 ~more insight The Book of Daniel Chapter 1~~Russel Stendal says it best.   When the meaning of the word “Daniel” is fulfilled in us, we will stop judging by our own criteria. We will not judge according to appearances, and we will not judge on our own. ~~Stendal, Russell. The Book of Daniel: Prophecy for Today from Daniel (p. 2). (Function). Kindle Edition.   In religion, when man creates his own fountain, a kind of spiritual homosexuality is created... they will never be able to reproduce life. It is impossible. Everything becomes sterile when we receive our ideas and plans from man instead of God. In the same manner, such a church cannot beget life. ~~Stendal, Russell. The Book of Daniel: Prophecy for Today from Daniel (pp. 3-4). (Function). Kindle Edition.   January 30, 2026 ~ more insight   Her perversions do not defile those who reject the advances of the seductive women…   These are those who are not defiled with women, for they are virgins. These are those who follow the Lamb wherever he goes. These are redeemed from among men, being the firstfruits unto God and to the Lamb. And in their mouth was found no guile, for they are without blemish before the throne of God. Revelation 14:4-5 JUB   March 15, 2026, Sunday: The Lord led me to this video of David Wilkerson (deceased 2011)   ·      The Laodicean Deception/ by David Wilkerson   Other references: The Deception of Christian Nationalism by Pastor Chuck Baldwin A Voice in the Wilderness:   The New Yorker: The Face of Christian Nationalism: Also see blog post: “The Harlot Woman” “Spiritual Maturity Dream” “Woe” "Repent, Repent, Repent"   **Please t ake this all to the Lord in prayer for your own confirmation.  In Christ Jesus~amk

Do you have ears to hear, and eyes to see? Do you follow the wolf in sheep’s clothes, blindly? Where is your heart and mind today? Do you seek God's face, or are you easily led astray? Do you know your God, His word, His plan? Do you seek answers from politicians, governments, or man? Are you kingdom-building or kingdom-bound? Are you seeking your will? Can you discern the difference? Just look around. You say you serve the living God, but do you know Him? Is the image you serve, fashioned and built by dogmas and traditions of men The deception was formed from the making of a “great” nation. Christian values*;    ingrained, have formed its foundation. Saving life* taking life* all from the same tongue. Lies and deception, the pied piper * has sung. The CNP* with its dominionist* views. The wolf in sheep’s clothes, deceiving us all, and even you. Secret meetings, oligarchs, and manipulating the law. Modern-day Pharisees and Sadducees will soon crucify us all! Naive, gullible, swayed by the devil’s schemes. None of this is what you think, or what it seems. Love your neighbor, except for the select few. Seems just, and right, until they start coming for you! Where was your seed sown when you first learned of Christ? On fertile ground, choked off, or perhaps eaten by mice? Love God with your whole heart, mind, spirit, and soul. Allowing the Holy Spirit to securely take hold. Do you put God in a box that is comfortable for you? A box that fits your supremacy, dominionist views? Can the created tell the creator what is good and evil? Embracing: self-righteousness while espousing upheaval God’s word is not something we use to fit us. It is life, peace, love, and wisdom, unto His righteousness. If this truth is difficult to consume or swallow. Take it to the Lord, He divides soul, spirit, joints, and marrow. God’s judgment comes first to his house; repent if you must. Allow the Holy Spirit to clean, mop, and dust. Wide is the road to destruction, which many walk down. Narrow is the path of life; very few have found. ~~~~~~~ If anyone has an ear, let him hear. Revelation 13:9 JUB   And ye shall seek me, and find me, for ye shall seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13. JUB   Set your sight on things above, not on things on the earth. Colossians 3:2 JUB   Beware lest any man spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit, after the traditions of men, according to the elements of the world, and not after Christ. Colossians 2:8 JUB   But he answered and said unto them, Why do ye also transgress the commandment of God by your tradition? Matthew 15:3 JUB   Thine habitation is in the midst of deceit; through deceit they refuse to know me, saith the Lord. Jeremiah 9:6 JUB   'As soon as the chief priests and their officials saw him, they shouted, “Crucify! Crucify!” But Pilate answered, “You take him and crucify him. As for me, I find no basis for a charge against him. John 19:6 NIV   Jesus replied: “ ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments. Matthew 22:37-40 NIV   So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets. Matthew 7:12NIV   The farmer sows the word. Some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. As soon as they hear it, Satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them. Others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy. But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—some thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times what was sown. Mark 4:14-20 NIV   Woe to those who quarrel with their Maker, those who are nothing but potsherds among the potsherds on the ground. Does the clay say to the potter, ‘What are you making?’ Does your work say, ‘The potter has no hands’? Isaiah 45:9 NIV   He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed. 1 Peter 2:24 NIV   Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. Romans 12:21 NIV   For the word of God is alive and efficient and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Hebrews 4:12 JUB   1Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. Go near to listen rather than to offer the sacrifice of fools, who do not know that they do wrong. Ecclesiastes 5:1 NIV   For it is time for judgment to begin with God’s household; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God? 1 Peter 4:17 NIV   Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. Matthew 7:13 NIV ~~~~~~~   **Words that may need clarification and research:   Saving Life, Taking Life: anti-abortion used to galvanize voters, as a tool to manipulate votes. Christian values: white supremacy Pied piper: Moral Majority   Dominionist Theology:   Council for National Policy (CNP):

Father God, I approach you with much fear and trembling I don’t want to put anyone before you, no idol or emblem I want only to seek your face, your heart, your way I most certainly don’t want to be led astray I desire your will, your precepts, your doctrine to know I want my mind to be focused on you, not tossed to-and-fro Concern grips my thoughts, Am I seeking answers where I should not? Father, work with me if you will. Guide me and keep me from swallowing lies pill. I know I have much to learn and obey Praying, Holy Spirit will light my way. Looking to man’s wisdom, or mine, when neither has a clue. Seeking you, Lord, is what I most desire and want to do. It is your way, no others will I purposely choose Your path, or your wrath with you, I cannot lose I know, with you, only wisdom is found. My soul pursues you, to be bound I have no other way of living; you are all I yearn to know. Patiently waiting, when your instruction says, “it is time to go”. I will seek you first, your kingdom, your righteousness As the things of this world quickly digress. What is truth, what is honest, what is Godly and right Pursue this, and God will surely win the fight   ~~~~~~~ My daughter, my child, I am your truth.  In me, you have all that you need. Wisdom, peace, love, kindness, gentleness, strength. You are perfected in me. I want all my children to know the truth.  Truth divides this world.  It separates those who are mine from those who are not. It separates the light from the darkness, the wheat from the chaff, the goats from the sheep, the forgiven from the unforgiven.  I am the truth, the life, and the way. No one comes to our Father except through me.   Coming to me for everything is so very important; do not hesitate in asking me, seeking me, wanting my input into all things.  This is a powerful stance.  Seek me in the smallest things, and even when things become more challenging and more overwhelming, you will not hesitate to come to me. Practice this daily.  Know that I am God, and I am your help in times of trouble, and I am with you always in the good and the bad. In the brightness and the darkness. In comfort and in fear, in peace and in chaos, I am with you always. Seek answers with me. Confirm all knowledge through me and my word.  I know all things; there is nothing new under the sun, nothing.  You are doing well to wait on me.  My timing is perfect. Do not get ahead of me, moving at my pace is when you are battle-ready, prepared. Again, do not lean on your own understanding, your own wisdom, or how you feel.  Listen, understand with the Spirit.  Your spirit and my spirit. The Holy Spirit, who presently guides you and instructs you in all things.  All Things. ~~~~~~~ But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.  Matthew 6:33 JUB   For evildoers shall be cut off, but those that wait for the Lord, they shall inherit the earth. Psalms 37:9 JUB   But I fear that as the serpent deceived Eve through his craftiness, so your senses should be corrupted in some way, and ye should fall from the simplicity that is in the Christ. 2 Corinthians 11:3 JUB   And if any of you lacks wisdom, let them ask of God (who gives abundantly to all, and without reproach), and it shall be given them.  James 1:5 JUB   The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and chastening.  Proverbs 1:7 JUB   But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, modest, benevolent, full of mercy and of good fruits, not judgmental, unfeigned.   James 3:17 JUB

Wide road to destruction You are deceived  if you put your trust in man You are deceived  if you put your trust in lawmakers, Congress, and government officials . All will lead down the broad road to destruction. ~~~~~~~   No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other… Matthew 6:24 NIV It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans. It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in princes. Psalms 118:8-9 NIV   Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. Matthew 7:13-14 NIV This is what the Lord says: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the Lord” Jeremiah 17:5 NIV ~~~~~~~   You are deceived into thinking you are fighting man when, truly, you fight against God. Our current administration is an instrument in God's hands. The Lord will use it to usher in judgment upon America. God’s judgment upon  Babylon, “The Harlot which sits on the Beast”.  Babylon will fall, and the world will lament. Hold on to Jesus, brothers and sisters, this is just the beginning. ~~~~~~~   What Should We Do? Fast, Repent! Lament! and Pray! If you have ears to hear and eyes to see, heed this warning! Put your eyes on your maker and creator, NOT MAN! ~~~~~~~   So put on sackcloth, lament and wail, for the fierce anger of the Lord has not turned away from us.  Jeremiah 4:8 NIV Now, therefore,” says the Lord, “Turn to Me with all your heart, With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.” So rend your heart, and not your garments; Return to the Lord your God, For He is gracious and merciful, Slow to anger, and of great kindness; And He relents from doing harm. ‭‭Joel‬ ‭2‬:‭12‬-‭13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬   Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up… 1 Peter 5:6 NIV   Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. Colossians 3:2 NIV   “And on her forehead a name was written: MYSTERY, BABYLON THE GREAT, THE MOTHER OF HARLOTS AND OF THE ABOMINATIONS OF THE EARTH.” Revelation 17:5 NKJV   For true and righteous are His judgments because He has judged the great harlot who corrupted the earth with her fornication; and He has avenged on her the blood of His servants shed by her.  Revelation 19:2 NKJV

Darkness is oh so close, lingering at the edge of light. Waiting for the opportunity to arrive Oh, but I cannot endure the darkness Worry takes a seat at the dawn of day Nudging its way into my thoughts I am oh so familiar with this old friend And the dangers it carries, lurking, wanting in Judgment, a friend indeed, I have given it a place at my table; it sits next to critical spirit Making it uncomfortable for Grace and Love These familiar foes desire to imprison me They love to lie, tell tall tales to trick me into sin In times past, I thought them to be my dearest friends This morn, as they linger near and try to have their way  I look to Him who set me free, and remind them who I am I'm not perfect, indeed I am not, but I belong to the Perfect One I may have fought this battle and lost,  But Jesus has fought the War and won Although my selfish tendencies and judgmental ways Sometimes, they get the best of me I have forgiveness through the Son of God; His sacrifice set me free The Son is radiant and bright. He brings warmth and healing rays of glory to the deepest and darkest night. ~~~~~~~ Look up, My child, seek My face. I have not gone far; I am oh so near Call my name, I am here. I am what you have done right. ~~~~~~~ Forgive me, Lord, for the sin I'm in Your grace is what I seek You know my desire, but I'm so darn weak.   ~~~~~~~ My grace is sufficient for you, my child, when you are weak, I am strong  I take pleasure in you when you turn to Me. Joy fills My throne room beyond. In this world, you will have trouble, but fear not, I have overcome the world.  I am always with you, my right hand upholds you ~~~~~~~   You comfort me and shield me, your blanket of love covers me My strength returns, my hope restored In your presence, I find all that I need. Glory to God in the highest Glory to God on high Peace flows from His storerooms Grace has overtaken me Give Glory to God, and find Peace in His presence   If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. Psalm 139:11-12 NIV   Thou wilt show me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; in thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore. Psalm 16:11   JUB He brought them out of darkness, the utter darkness, and broke away their chains.    Psalms 107:14 NIV In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.John 1:4-5 NKJV

When my image of you was my earthly father. When I gave him your place in my heart. His words tore me and wounded me. Lord, I knew you not. When he was absent, and I felt abandoned.  When he caused my tears to fall. When his anger struck fear in my heart, I knew you not at all When I turned to him for comfort and there was none to be found. When my heart and soul longed for love, suffering and sorrow were around When I hid my true self, for fear of rejection, turning others away from me. I was ashamed of my imperfections. When he hated, when he lashed out, when he left us all alone.  I thought him to be you Lord. But the truth for me was unknown.   ~~~~~~~ "I am not a man! I am the God of the Universe!  I have created all! I AM that I AM! I am nothing small. What man can compare? I am God Almighty. The First and the Last! God Everlasting! What man would dare? I comfort all who seek me. brokenhearted and lost.  My Son has suffered and paid all the cost. I heal the wounded; I wipe every tear.  I live within you I am always near. I will forsake you not, where man will soon fail. My Love is sufficient it always prevails. ~~~~~~~ Oh, how little I knew of you, Lord, my Father, my God. Your ways, your thoughts, your hands, Lord, I knew you not. When I turn to you, you delight in me. When I seek your face, you are there. When I need comfort, your arms are open. To you, no one compares When my tears fall, you wipe them. When my heart aches, you mend. When I am afraid, you chase my fears. When I am lonely, you are always here. In your presence, there is continual peace. With you, my soul is at rest, my heart is filled. There is no longing, there is no want. Oh, Lord, how little I knew of you.  I knew you not at all. ~~~~~~~   And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent. John 17:3 JUB He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. Psalms 46:10 NIV   Let us acknowledge the Lord; let us press on to acknowledge him. As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth. Hosea 6:3 NIV Then Jesus answered and said unto them, Ye do err, not knowing the scriptures nor the power of God. Matthew 22:29 JUB

A raggedy rag doll, lost and thrown, soiled, and torn, Rejected, unprotected, ruefully scorned Sin uncovered every ghastly inch Insecurities from within seeped like stench Broken, wounded, battered, and bruised You cradled this raggedy doll, worn and used I had nothing to give, but much to gain As my Masters hand gently retrieved my broken frame I recoiled in fear, so marred from the pain I gave you nothing, but you loved me all the same My heart in shambles, my mouth profane You washed me clean, stitched my wounds Salved my eyes, entered my heart, then watched it bloom You redeemed what little was left of me Turned over fallow ground, my soul, set free Heart mender, restorer of souls, redeemer of lives You select throwaways, in trash heaps, with no hope to survive Maker of kings, kingdoms, princes, paupers, and all. Master Tailor, and Redeemer of raggedy rag dolls. ~~amk   ~~~~~~~   When Jesus heard it, he said unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick; I came not to call the righteous, but the sinners to repentance. Mark 2:17 JUB   Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he has redeemed from the hand of the enemy  Psalms 107:2 JUB   For the Son of man is come to save that which was lost. Matthew 18:11 JUB   He heals the broken hearted, and he binds up their wounds. Psalms 147:3 JUB   I counsel thee to buy of me gold refined in the fire, that thou may be made rich; and clothed in white raiment, so that the shame of thy nakedness not be uncovered; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou may see. Revelation 3:18 JUB

Where do I find you Lord? In the early morn Before I open my eyes You sit by my side Waiting for me to awake Will I choose to stay and talk with you Will I run off and find things to do Will my thoughts be held captive today or tomorrow? Where do I find you Lord? ~amk ~~~~~~~ Awake, my child, I am here living within you Knowing your every need, watching over you continually Your need is only to be in my presence Seek me in the quiet stillness There you will find me, waiting for you to start your day Your day is orchestrated, prepared, and designed by me I will guide you through, watch, and listen Look for my presence, it is all around you My Peace is in abundance. My Grace, in unlimited supply Sit with me, be still, I will provide Do not let your thoughts wander Resist the urge to begin without me Be still for a moment, let my purpose be Drink in my sweet spirit, breathe in your daily portion It is now where you will find me, in this moment, this present time I am not limited by time The place you will find me is in every moment of your day Look for me there, here I am right now ~~Yeshua ~~~~~~~ The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore, I will wait for him.”  Lamentations 3:24 JUB Glory and beauty are in his presence; strength and gladness are in his place 1 Chronicles 16:27 JUB   And ye shall seek me, and find me, for ye shall seek me with all your heart.  Jeremiah 29:13 JUB   “But Jesus beheld them and said unto them, With men this is impossible,                                      but with God all things are possible.”  Matthew 19:26 JUB

Recently, the Lord provided this scripture for use on this blog page. As I read it, the passage became personalized, reflecting my spiritual journey and heart condition as He continues my spiritual refinement.  To make the psalm applicable to myself, I adjusted the language by removing references to others. This approach, using the Bible, is a practice the Lord taught me years ago as I learned to hear and understand His voice. When appropriate, I personalize the scripture by inserting myself into the text, guided by the Holy Spirit. Not all passages are suited to this method, but I rely on spiritual discernment to determine when it is appropriate for me.  (  ) emphasis added ~~~~~~~ Psalms 107: 1-31, 41-43 JUB  O give thanks unto the Lord, for he is good; for his mercy endures for ever. Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom he has redeemed from the hand of the enemy  and gathered them out of the lands, from the east and from the west, from the north and from the south. I wandered lost in the wilderness, alone and out of the way; I found no city to dwell in. Hungry and thirsty, my soul fainted within me Then I cried unto the Lord in my trouble, and he delivered me out of my distresses. And he led me forth by the right way, that I might go to a city of habitation. Oh, that I would praise the Lord for his mercy and for his wonderful works unto the sons (and daughters) of Adam! For He satisfies the soul that is destitute and fills the hungry soul with goodness.  I sat in darkness and in the shadow of death, being bound in affliction and in irons, because I rebelled against the words of God and condemned the counsel of the Most High: Therefore He brought down my heart with labour; I fell down, and there was no one to help. Then I cried unto the Lord in my trouble, and he saved me out of my distresses. He brought me out of darkness and the shadow of death and broke my bonds asunder. Oh, that I would praise the Lord for his mercy and for his wonderful works unto the sons (and daughters) of Adam! For he has broken the gates of brass and cut the bars of iron asunder. ​ Foolish, because of the way of my rebellion,  and because of my iniquities, I was afflicted. My soul abhorred all manner of food, and I drew near unto the gates of death. Then I cried unto the Lord in my trouble, and he saved me out of my distresses. He sent his word and healed me and delivered me from my grave. Oh, that I would praise the Lord for his mercy and for his wonderful works unto the sons (and daughters) of Adam! And let me offer the sacrifices of praise and publish His works with singing.  ​ I have gone down to the sea in ships that do work in many waters, I have seen the works of the Lord and his wonders in the deep. For he commands and raises the stormy wind, which lifts up its waves. I mount up to the heavens; I go down again to the depths; my soul is melted because of trouble. I reel to and fro and stagger like a drunken woman, and all of my knowledge is of no avail. Then I cry unto the Lord in my trouble, and he delivers me out of my afflictions. He makes the storm a calm, so that its waves are still. Then I am glad because they are at rest; so He brings me into the haven of His will. Oh, that I would praise the Lord for his mercy and for his wonderfulworks unto the sons (and daughters) of Adam! Yet he sets the poor on high from affliction and makes his families like a flock. The righteous shall see it and rejoice, and all iniquity shall stop her mouth. Who is wise and will observe these things and shall understand the mercies of the Lord?

Self-Parenting is for the fatherless, the motherless, the lost. It is for those who do not understand the redeeming act of the Cross. If I could help myself, I wouldn't be such a mess If I could parent myself, I wouldn’t be in distress Self-Parenting is for orphans, the abandoned, and the alone. Self-parenting is for people who are lost, with no home If I could parent myself, I would be perfect in every way I would be the perfect parent now and always Self-parenting may have a purpose and place in someone’s life But for me, the ultimate healer is God's Son and his precious sacrifice. His plan from the beginning as Creator, Father, and God Was to make us his children, but through sin and lies, we were robbed Humankind, from the start, has turned away from their true Father. To replace Him with idols, manmade things, and much fodder. God is our father, our mother, our companion, our friend He has been like this from the beginning and ultimately at our end. To think I, the created, could fix up and patch up what the creator ordained. To do so would cause my Savior's death and sacrifice to be in vain For He was bruised for my iniquities, And chastised for my peace And with His stripes I am healed. Why would I turn to myself if God has sealed the deal? A self-parenting follower of Jesus Christ is a contradiction, you see I have a father, a mother, and a constant companion within me Who am I to question my Abba Father's plan To depend upon Him, never myself or man. ~~~~~~~ I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. John 14:18 NIV A father of the fatherless and a judge and protector of the widows is God in His holy habitation. Psalm 68:5 AMP) Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— (John 1:12 NIV) 'But he was wounded for our rebellions; he was bruised for our iniquities; the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and by his stripes healing was provided for us. ‘ Isaiah 53:5